manaika: (Conrad & Yozak's memories)
I'm such a horrible, horrible person.

Here I go, promising you new chapters of "Price of your Heart" and I never post some. I feel horrible and I apologize profusely to all of you, my faithfull readers and those who have been actually looking forward to a new chapter. But, in my defense, I just haven't had any inspiration.
I don't want to give you any cheap excuses, but I think that if you've actually waited for so long, you deserve an explanation.

You see, I had this awful, horrible, blasted paper to write and it completely drained my energy. It wasn't fun, it was nothing I would have chosen as a topic, but I didn't really have much of a choice. After I was finished with it, I wanted to write the fanfic, but I was stuck on one scene and admittedly, just the thought of having to write something sent me into a fit of denial. Plus, after some time, I didn't feel anything when I thought about my challenge, it was like I completely lost my relation to it. And to be completely honest, I felt myself fall out of the fandom a little. Just a little. All I did the last week was watch One Piece, read fanfics and rp - a little - at pot_lj. Today I didn't think would be any different, but somehow I opened the newest chapter file and even wrote a bit. I went through the chapter and wrote some more and gradualy I felt the inspiration return. It gave me a positive charge and it seems I'll be able to write this weekend and next week. There is another paper coming up, but this one will be better (much more fun) and the presentation isn't due to mid-June.

I think I was really just drained and needed some time to recharge, collect myself...

Life had been...a bit confusing in the past months and I kept dragging some issues with me for a long time, but hopefully that's gone now.

I don't know when the next update will come, but hopefully soon. Hang on and thank you for still supporting my writing.
manaika: (the PUSH)

As surely most of you guys know, I'm a fanfiction writer, who occassionaly makes a montage, compiles a video, draws a fanart and scans a doujinshi. 
Of course, when I get a nice comment, that appreciates the effort and work, it makes me happy and I admit, taht I love recieving your feedback. It keeps me going. I am grateful for that.

What I like less is spam.

Especially spam of the type that contains a link (commercial) and nothing else, and is submitted into a fanfiction post.

Please. And with this please I'm turning not to my friends list, who have been nothing but supportive and wonderfull to me, but visitors of my journal generally. Especially to those visitors, that do nothing else but posting links where comments to fanfictions should be. 


I have anonymous commenting turned on, because many of my readers don't have a livejournal account and I don't want them to feel like they have to sign up, to get through to me. The comment link under a post is there to recieve a comment to the post, which is exactly what it says: A comment. Your personal opinion to what is written in the post. I'm sur emost of you understand this. However, i'm sad to note, that not everyone sees it like this.

If you want to send me a link, send it in a PM and at least take that one minute to write an intro and an outro (in other words a greeting, a five word sentence what you want me to do with this link, and your signature). 


Oh and I've been getting Russian comments. Written in cyrilic. Well. I don't mind it, if it's a comment to the fanfic (and I know enough cyrilic and russian to distinguish it.) However, don't expect a reply. And don't expect me to understand it all. And don't expect me to reply - not in russian, in english, or any other language. 
I have also gotten comments in russian that said "it's horrible" (as I said, i know enough russian to get the difference between "it's horrible" and "it's good"). I deleted those too. If you have something to criticise, do it constructively. 

Now you may ask, what is the sense of this post?

Well, I'm not sure myself. I think I just wanted to tell you why I was deleting your links (and yes, they got posted twice). Maybe I have gotten frustrated with it and just needed to talk myself (to my friends) out. And maybe I just had nothing else to write about.

You may say whatever you want.

(Just don't spam.)

manaika: (the PUSH)

I'm sure some of you have already heard about this, but just for recapitulation:
The popular site, has decided to take a charge against the M rated fanfic, that include MA content (over 18) and delete all of the fanfics containing such. Many of the fanfics that contain such scenes (sexual scenes, or any other scenes of the adult kind) have been going on for years - including some of mine. The authors work hard and long and have many devoted readers. Many of the fics aren't simply PWP, but include the adult themes, because it suits the, because it creates the right atmosphere, or various other reasons.
And it's not like they don't warn about such scenes. Most of them...most of us, do. If someone doesn't feel comfortable about reading such scenes, he is free to skip them. It's still the reader's choice what they read, as it is the writer's choice what they write.
I feel like acting like that and banning the fanfics, is taking away this choice from me - from us.

So I decided to do something good and spread the petition, that fights against the removing of thosands of fanfic, that we have been working long and hard on. I have already signed it. Will you?

I recommend you sign it. Most of my fanfictions, including my current work I'm focusing on, "Price of your Heart" (which many of you have been reviewing to, and gave me positive feedback, that always made me want to continue and finish it), contain adult material (on the sideline, not even in the main focus of the work) and are thus endangered of deleting. Such a thing would probably demoralize me to no end. All of your kind reviews, the work of the past months...gone.

It's your choice whether you sign this petition, or not, but as a writer, I turn now to the fans of my works. To you, the fans of fanfiction, our supporters. We need signatures to save our fanfictions. If you want to continue to read them on, please sign this. It would give me, just as the rest of us fanfiction writers massive feedback.

Thank you.

The link to the petition doesn't show, if I share it like this, but, if you go here:
and click the "share with website or blog" link, it'll show an embed code (this one, that doesn't work) and next to it the panel with the red buttom "sign petition". Click that, if you want to sign it.

A huge thank to those who have already done so, or will decide to do so.


Your fanfiction writer,
manaika: (conzak a*s)

Hi! It's been a long time since I posted a meme.

This one has been originally rolling around in the Bleach fandom, but I thought it was such a waste to use it only on one fandom and included characters from Kyou kara Maou, One Piece, Prince of Tennis and Hakuoki

1. Harada Sanosuke, Hakuoki
2. Nagakura Shinpachi, Hakuoki
3. Saito Hajime, Hakuoki
4. Yozak Grie, Kyou kara Maou
5. Gwendal von Voltaire, Kyou kara Maou
6. Conrad Weller, Kyou kara Maou
7. Sakaki Tarou, Prince of Tennis
8. Zoro, One Piece
9. Sanji, One Piece
10. Watanabe Osamu, Prince of Tennis

1. Have you read a five/ten fic before?

No. And I doubt there'll ever be one...Whcih on hindsight might be a pity. If I imagine Osamu driving Gwendal'd be a lot like it's with Yozak, just a bit more psycho.

2. Do you think three is hot? How hot?

Seen episode 9? THAT HOT. And very very moe. 

3. What would happen if six got one pregnant?

Oh dear God. 2/Shinpachi would go ballistic. Sano would attempt to kill Conrad. Yozak would attempt to kill Conrad. (Or laugh his ass off). There would be lots of golden-eyed, auburn-haired, swordsman/spearman hybrid babies and generally, all hell would break loose. It would be insanely cute, though.

4. Do you recall any good fics about nine?

Yes, there are very few people who write an awesome Sanji.

5. Would seven and two make a good couple?

Sakaki and Shinpachi? This is past my imagination. But...Sakaki is a great coach, Shinpachi a great swordsman and both (I imagine) sexually frustrated (if we go by the canon of the animes). It could work.

6. Four/eight or four/nine?

Sure. I don't see any person whom Yozak wouldn't go with. If nothing else, he's a good fight for both Zoro and Sanji. Actually, they even might make a good threesome xD

7. What would happen if seven discovered three and eight in a secret relationship?

Collect the information for later use. But other than that, he would be probably pretty cool about it. There's no situation I can imagine Sakaki freaking out about. Though Zoro and Saito in a relationship is a very good candidate for a brain freeze

8. Make a summary of at least twenty words for a two/six fic.

Shinpachi and Conrad? Easy.

Left alone in a world that's alien to him, Shinpachi finds reassurance in the comforting silvery gleam of a blade in the swordsman honeygolden eyes.

9. Is there a such thing as a four/ten romantic fluff story?

Not that I know of. However Osamu/Yozak gives a lot of room for a sarcastic fic full of psycho, angst, spying, crossdressing and general madness. And Tennis, probably. Somehow. No fluff though.

10. Suggest a title for a one/five Hurt/Comfort fic.

Rock in the Storm. I can imagine it well for Sano and Gwendal. The slightly unstable Sano with the seppuku scar and the sure and firm Gwendal, with his reassuring hold around him.

11. What kind of plot would you use if four wanted to seduce one?

Yozak seducing Sano?! xD Oh God, let's see. Lots and lots of crossdressing with lots and lots of lacey stuff, garters and shameless flirting. Not that Sano would mind, though ;) He would totally let himself be seduced by a sexy redhead. And he would appreciate the extra effort, the smart, perverted, sexy, redheaded smooth-talker he is himself. However, I have no idea who would top.

12. Does anyone on your friends list read number seven/nine slash?

Sakaki and Sanji? No.

13. If you wrote a songfic about number ten, what song would you chose?

Either something psychotic, or something bittersweet and forlorn.

14. If you wrote a two/three/six fic, what would the warning be?

Heavy usage of swords. ...Great, now I won't get the images out of my head! (I mean, really, what else could I warn from in a Shinpachi/Saito/Conrad fic?)

15. What pick-up line might eight use on five?

Zoro picking up Conrad? "I hear you're the best swordsman around here. Fight me for your title."
(Either that, or: "I've got three swords, I top.")

16. Challenge: Write a drabblefic for ten/eight.

I'm actually beginning to think that to change this meme was a bad idea. How the hell am I supposed to write an Osamu/Zoro drabble? Ah well, here goes nothing:

Really, it figures, Osamu thought. If he thought that a bunch of lunatics to coach in his first teaching year was bad, then this was even deeper than the bottom of the pit, he had fallen into when he got into this strange, strange world. Pirates were just the beginning, really. Cooks that could break your spine with a swing of their leg, woman that could grow multiple limbs in just one moment, sugar-high rubber boys with a strawhat, singing cyborgs, musician skelettons, reindeer doctors...and marimos that challenged you to a fight and then somehow grew three heads, six arms, six feet and somwhere in between that managed to carry nine swords. Somehow, and Osamu didn't know how, Zoro thought that he was a worthy match and kept challenging him for the purpose to grow stronger. Osamu sometimes just wished he would finally wake up from this nutcase of a dream, but then, in between the next disaster this insane crew got themselves into, the realization, that this was indeed real, hit him and he had to force himself to accept it. Sometimes he missed his bunch of lunatics. But then Zoro would stick his head out of the crow's nest and challenge him again and Osamu would slowly begin to accept his fate. And just as slowly he would begin to not mind as much. After all, there were so many amusing things one could do with three heads, six arms and six legs. And maybe there was a way he could convince Zoro to let him use those nine swords for a much more pleasent way of piercing through a body... From behind the gelley, Zoro appeared, challenge clear in his eyes. Osamu grinned evilly.



Oct. 26th, 2010 08:53 pm
manaika: (the PUSH)
 Taken from [ profile] darence_evren 

1.Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?:
10. What's your philosophy on life?:
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?:
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?:
13. What is your favorite memory of us?:
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?:
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?:
17. Can we get together and make a cake?:
18. Which country is your spiritual home?:
19. What is your big weakness?:
20. Do you think I'm a good person?:
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?:
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?:
24. What do you wear to sleep?:
25. Trousers or skirts?:
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?:
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!):
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?:
manaika: (Default)
 Faithfull readers! Devoted reviewers! Fans and friends! My beloved everyone!

I come with two announcements today!

I changed my pen-name on from AkinoBekyCarterBakura to manaika to avoid confusion and make it clear.

For a few years now, I have had a fanfic epic crossover arc in mind.
It's gonna contain like about every anime I ever watched (meaning it's gonna be partially AU), with main focus on Kyou Kara Maou, Prince of Tennis and Full Metal Panic, but filled out with Gravitation, Gakuen Heaven and other various yaoi and shounen-ai animes, Black Blood Brothers, Weiss Kreuz, and then some. An arc of one-shots, short fics, epic fics, you name it.
Request? I accept them.
Since it's obviously gonna be much and take long, I didn't believe I would ever get to do it, or complete it. But now it seems, that one-shots (or rather long-shots - I thank [ profile] kuro_wolf  for this term) is the way to do it.
And actually, a few things are already up. They aren't however the main ones, so I never said anything. I am however now.
Below is the list of fics it contains.

Prince of Tennis:
- Tango towards destruction

- OK Club


Jul. 24th, 2010 08:49 pm
manaika: (conzak a*s)

Got this from Azzure21015Thunder on


Go to and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.

1.) Your name?
Answer: Monika

1) female name meaning advisor and counsellor coming from latin and greek. (Not true. I have studied ancient greek. Monika comes from monos which means the only one.)

2) A German name meaning "Woman of Wisdom".

3) The best friend you will ever have!!! Honest, intelligent, smart and beautiful (inside and out). You can trust her with anything. She will listen, take care of you and be your best friend forever. She has a unique personality and everyone enjoys being her friend. She is awesome!!!! (Of course I’m awesome!)

2.) Your age?
Answer: 21

1) The age at which one is finally considered human. (Gee, thanks...By the way, in Europe it’s 18.)

2) To '21' something is to quit it, to give up on something. (Giving up? ...Will you pay me?)

3) The magic number in the game of Blackjack. (Oh good, maybe I should start playing then)

3.) One of your friends?
Answer: Rimma

1) Tough, beautiful, hilarious, and honest woman. Rimma means gazelle in Arabic, it means Roman in Latin... it is a strong minded and ambitious woman, who will stop at nothing. She defines herself and her life, no one else can do that.

2) Licking an anus. (What the bloody fuck...)

4.) What should you be doing?
Answer: writing

1) a kind of love that thats annoying as hell and makes you want to pull your hair out. It keeps you up and night, and it makes you think about the world entirely differently. Its a passion that is unlike any other. It overides everything in your life.

2) The purest form of art. (...I actually meant writing an e-mail, but oh well...I should be working on my fics too)

5.) Favorite color(s)?
Answer: red

1) One of the three primary colours of light. When mixed with green, it makes yellow. When mixed with blue, it makes magenta. It is opposite cyan on the colour wheel.

2) This describes the condition of the person who has been smoking marijuana and drinking alcohol--they are red, as in red in the face (from the alcohol) AND/OR red in the eyes (from the marijuana). (...OK. So I’m for the legalisation.)

3) A cigarette from a "red" box of marlboro cigarettes.

6.) Birthplace?
Answer: Bratislava

1) The term "going to Bratislava" refers to the act of getting piss drunk, usually by means of - though not limited to - the consumption of a brand of cheap vodka known as "Taiga." The after effects of "going to Bratislava" may include throwing up on oneself and/or others, forgetting almost everything that occurred the previous evening, and developing an unbearable, seemingly perpetual hangover. (Thanks. No, really, thanks)

2) It's a capital of Slovakia. Population is around 400 000 people. Town with nice girls, what more can you ask for?
It's worthy to come and check it out. (If you want to get bored or travel to Vienna. Or get drunk in some bar, or eat yourself to death in a restaurant)
-Eurotrip movie is crap!!

7.) Month of your birth?
Answer: November

1) The month in which the sexiest people are born (especially since most were concieved in february-the month of love-9 months earlier) (... My birthday is at the end of november.)

2) A month following October and preceding December, in which whose rain it is hard to hold a candle in, and which spawned a monster. (That would be me then. bwuhahahahaaa)

3) November is the month before October and before December. In Chinese mythology, the end of this month 28th and 30th signifies the birth of two lovers - Ke Er and Ming En, who later becomes dieties in the heavens. November ("Shi-Yi-Yue" in Mandarin, is also known as "Ji-Wei-Ai-Ri" to the Dan Ma Xi tribe)
They are worshipped by few Chinese tribes today. (I get worshipped in China? Cool!)

8.) Last person you talked to?
Answer: Mom

1) The woman who loves you unconditionally from birth, the one who puts her kids before herself and the one who you can always count on above everyone else. Just telling her your problems makes you feel better because mom's always know how to make it all go away. Even if you fight, know that she's just looking out for your best interests.

2) The hardest and lowest paid, but most rewarding job in the world.


9.) One of your nicknames?
Answer: Moška

....No deffinitions. It’s unique! ...Or maybe it has to do something with the „softener“ – I doubt there is a word for it in english. Since I hardly doubt that the english ever heard about something like a softening symbol.

manaika: (Default)
To tell you te truth, I never expected it happen so soon. Yeah, I knew it would occur eventually, but not so early. Not in October. Not just when my semester started. My winter depression. Usually it arrives sometime in the middle of november. And it takes me anothe two weeks to pull out a cigarette and light it. And at least 3 months to finish the pack. When things will continue like this, I'll finish it before the week ends.
The whole day I feel like smashing something, screaming, beating somebody up and simply go berserk. I have absolutely no mood for anything and I just wish a lightning would struck me or something. A pity that won't happen since it isn't raining - but it looked like it will for the whole day. I don't want to move, I don't want to write and even if I should go and solve some problems (I have time untill friday), I feel like I don't care and that the whole world can go fuck itself. I don't care. But I should.
This is my call for help...Don't leave me alone.

The apathic, wishing to die on the spot,




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