Call for help

[manaika]

To tell you te truth, I never expected it happen so soon. Yeah, I knew it would occur eventually, but not so early. Not in October. Not just when my semester started. My winter depression. Usually it arrives sometime in the middle of november. And it takes me anothe two weeks to pull out a cigarette and light it. And at least 3 months to finish the pack. When things will continue like this, I'll finish it before the week ends.
The whole day I feel like smashing something, screaming, beating somebody up and simply go berserk. I have absolutely no mood for anything and I just wish a lightning would struck me or something. A pity that won't happen since it isn't raining - but it looked like it will for the whole day. I don't want to move, I don't want to write and even if I should go and solve some problems (I have time untill friday), I feel like I don't care and that the whole world can go fuck itself. I don't care. But I should.
MAKE ME CARE! PLEASE! I'm DESPERATE!
This is my call for help...Don't leave me alone.

The apathic, wishing to die on the spot,

manaika

cheers.

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Thanks ^^
Fortunately I feel a lot better now, but I'll keep this link - winter is coming and I can't guarantee.
*hugs and kisses*
Thanks again!